How does it feel to be pregnant?

The excitement!
The thought of carrying a little human being inside of you!

“Could it be true? Am I really going to be a mama?“
The euphoria of thoughts and emotions running through my head, waiting for the moment of truth.

A peeing stick in my hand, a very emotional self, a hope!
“Let me read the instructions”, I say to myself. “I have to follow the exact instructions from the paper, otherwise it won’t show the truth”.

I try my best, the stick is finally wet, the curtains are up, let the show begin!
I can feel my heart pumping a bit louder. Is it 100 degrees in here? I hope for the best. I have thought about this moment for quite some time now!

But nothing can compete with the level of the fun-show that is “my thoughts”.
Wait a minute there! Can I really be a mother? What if I am not prepared? What am I even saying, of course I’m not prepared. But my family is going to be over the roof, so that’s good I guess. I am so happy WE are doing this!

Patiently waiting. I see one line. Okay! … Its seems like the time has finally stopped, with me trapped in an infinite loop of recursive thoughts …

Wait a second! Is that another line? Oh my God …

What does a positive pregnancy test mean?

A positive pregnancy test usually indicates the presence of the hormone human chorionic gonadotropin (hCG) in a woman’s urine or blood, which is produced by the placenta after a fertilized egg has implanted in the uterus. The presence of hCG is a strong indicator of pregnancy, but a positive test should be confirmed by a doctor through further medical testing.

Fast forward, 4+ months later

None of my clothes fit!
I have these beautiful pregnancy clothes now, with the bump in the middle. I look very cute with my baby bump, I even get compliments. Heck, it even seemed like my cute neighbour was checking me out. On the other hand, he could have also been stoned, so those cute gazing episodes were maybe just him being high. What a fun time to be alive! I can finally “eat for two”, not that I couldn’t do it before the pregnancy, but now I have a genuine reason for it.

Fast forward, 3+ months later

I really do have the pregnancy glow! I am glowing up, or should I say blowing up?
Come on baby girl, you are 1 week past the due date. Is it cozy in there, you don’t want to get out? You love it at your mommies, don’t you? Mommy loves it too. Take your time and relax!

I drink red raspberry leaf tea now. It apparently strengthens the uterine walls and decreases labour time in pregnant women. I cherish these beautiful moments of us sharing the drinks, the food, the mood, and everything in between.

Oh, and did I mention the latest karate championship that has been going on for quite some time now. Take it easy girl, that is indeed my bladder you are aiming for!
Later accompanied by the infamous hiccups sessions. Yes you read that correctly, we started to have the hiccups inside my belly now.

Oh the pain! Oh the laughter! Oh the joy!

It’s 4 o’clock in the morning. Today, of all days feels different!
“Just change your sleeping position”, I keep telling myself. “The pains will soon go away”. But they are not going away, this is indeed a special day.

Oh the fear of giving birth!

Let me be honest:
I can’t wait to meet you; “oh hey there sunshine” to greet you!
Your little hands to kiss; with lullabies of my ancient people, to calm you down to sweet sleep.
I have this picture in my head! A picture of me holding you in my arms for the very first time. A mothers true blessing.

That is why I am walking through these hospital doors, nothing but fearless and brave.

A day to celebrate, a day to pray!
A daughter is born! A mother is born today!

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